WORD OF CAUTION

Excuse my vulnerability
But I want more than you seem to be willing to give and all of this is really making me ill
Because all I do is care and continue to put my heart on the line and you seem to let it down every single time
When caring is no longer enough what do you do?
How do you know the moment your emotions are being abused?
I want you to want me to want to be with you
But you seem too confident and have better things to do
don’t sleep on the job because someone could be working over time
And the job you want may not be always so easy to find
So pardon my abruptness but I’m over here so can you pay attention to me
Please don’t slip on the game because someone else could be playing for keeps
Monae

UNAPPREICATED

You cant hear me but I’m calling you.
You cant feel me but I see you.
And I don’t want to but like taking in oxygen I have no choice.
At the end of the night when I replay my thoughts in my mind all of them all the same. They all have a direct connection to you.
Now the rain is pouring down against my window as the water cleanses me in the shower and I realize that I am alone.
I seemed to be trapped in my own emotions.
Everything I do is being recorded,
And I feel like I will never be rewarded
All I do is feel
All I feel is that I give
And give, and give
But you still cant hear me
I’m calling you though
The funny thing is I’m not being ignored I’m just not being adored so as a consequence I’m filled with doubt
And with all this rain I still feel a drought
Because I’m looking you in your eyes and you still don’t see me
I’m touching you in your face and you still don’t feel me
But the rain keeps coming
And I keep calling
And it keeps pounding….

LIFETIMES B4 U

THE MOST COMPLICATED THING ABOUT THE BODY IS THE DIFFCULITY IN CONTROLLING IT. IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN WORDS THAT YOUR EARS DON'T WANT TO HEAR. IT'S NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE TO FIGHT OFF THE URGE OF THE TASTE BUD WHEN YOUR FINGERS ARE CALLING NEAR. IT'S A CHALLENGE TO REFUSE TO TAKE THE ROUTE, ALTHOUH YOUR MIND KNOWS ITS THE BEST THING TO DO. BUT ONCE YOUR LEGS MOVE TOWARDS IT YOU'VE ALREADY GIVEN INTO THE USE. THE BODY HAS A MIND OF ITS OWN AND THE MIND SOMETIMES JUST SITS THERE FOR SHOW. LIFE HAS A WAY OF REVEALING THINGS TO THE BODY THAT YOUR MIND ALREADY KNOWS. TEMPTATION OF THE BODY HAS ALMOST NOTHING TO DO WITH THE MIND. YET, THE RELATIONSHIP IS CLEAR AS A GRANDFATHER CLOCK TELLING TIME. AND SO THE COMPLICATIONS OF THE BODY BEAT ON ME HEAVILY LIKE AN AFRICAN DRUM. I AM FORCED TO REACT SOLEY ON MY BODY AND LEAVE THE LIKES OF LOVE ALONE.

Objects of H E A R T B R E A K

YOU SMILED. I SMILED TOO.
EVERYTIME YOU WOULD LEAVE I WOULD MISS YOU.
IF I DREAMED YOU WERE IN PAIN
I'D AWAKE AND CAST IT ALL AWAY.
YOU CRIED. I TOOK IN ALL YOUR TEARS.
YOU WERE AFRAID. I DEMOLISHED
THEM AND THEY WERE NO LONGER
FEARS.
YOU TOUCHED ME. YOUR HANDS
FELT LIKE SILK.
YOU RAN THROUGH MY VEINS.
YOU HEALED MY BODY LIKE THE TASTE OF WARM MILK.
YOU DREAMED. I DREAMT I'D ALWAYS BE WITH YOU.
YOU SELPT AT NIGHT. IN SPIRIT I SELPT RIGHT NEXT TO YOU.
BUT IN THE MORNING YOUR SMILE BEGAN TO FADE. THE
DREAMS YOU SHARED WITH ME WENT AWAY. THE FEARS
I CONQURED FOR YOU, YOU LEFT THEM FOR ME. WHAT
USED TO RUN THROUGH MY VEINS BECAME TOXIC
TO KEEP UP YOUR SLEEVE.
EVERYTHING I GAVE TO YOU.
YOU WERE AGASINT MY HEART.
EVERYTHING I PUT TOGETHER,
YOU TORE APART.
I AM QUIVERING IN FEAR
AND MY BODY IS BEGINNING TO
SHAKE,
EVERYHTING I GAVE OUT OF LOVE,
YOU RETUNRED AS OBJECTS OF
HEARTBREAK.

BY: Keara Monae 10.12.05

FOR THE OCCASION

I love you with a deepness that transforms my mind, body and soul.
I need you with eagerness and habit to let you take control.
I crave you like the desert craves rain in the summer time.
I sense you with all of my body and my entire mind.
I desire you with a feeling that goes against all I have ever known.
Causing me to feel intense pressure and go wherever you desire me to go.
To have you as my own, to love you just for you being you has become my favorite pastime and a habit that I never want to lose.
I engage in whatever you need because you have become my need.


I love you unconditionally for reasons that are even unknown to me.
All that I am sure of is like oxygen I need you to breathe.
Like summer time you bring me intense heat.
My mind and my body all sense you with immense intensity.
All I have ever known goes beneath all that you have taught me.
Causing me to feel overwhelmed and want you to be one with me.
To have you as my own; to look into your eyes and know you love me for me
Has given me the power to be content and the fulfillment of being complete.